a fReSh sTaRt t0 a nEw beGiNniNg . .

man have i been busy

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 15:05:32 GMT

wow i cant believe how little extra time i have just to writ ein my journal.. between softball, lifegaurding, school, and on the weekends i have at least one sweet 16 .. i feel so clustered.. but im glad im keepin myself busy..

;last night i had michelles sweet 16..and then kristens sweet 16

michelles party was awesome.. hangin out with the peoples was oodles of fun..kelly was wearin a very slutty dress lol.. and evreyone looked beautiful.. but sadly i had to leave and go to my BEAUTIFUL KRISTEN'S sweet 16 which was another awesome part yin a row.. the dancing was soo much fun.. and once again everyone looked beautiful.. all in all i had a pretty good night

and happy sweet 16 to both of the beautiful birthday girls <3

ok so today we are playin hackley and im gettin a little nervous.. but yea i have to go .. soo wish me luck !

gabbbb

but you wont get to see the tears i cry.. behind these big br0wn eyes =*)

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 21:58:14 GMT

hey guys.. hmm lets see * tonite i have ryann"s sweet 16 in the city ! me and all the sexy ladies are takin a hugee ass limo into the city and goin to "LIPS" yayy..its gunna be soo much fun.. im all done up in a cute little outfit..lol and of course i didnt forget to accessorize with my huge chanel sunglasses..even tho the rain is pouring..

well im exctiedd for tonite...

anyway.. this break was alot of fun.. soo manyy untold memories..im glad i was off all week..i caught up on alotof rest..and thinkingg.. i mean im gettin over everything slower than i thought..but nevertheless..im gettin over it.. i mean im just gunna live my life.. and be happy* theres really no other way to be.. lifes too short to sit around and wonder how things would be different if....

anywayyyy last night i went out with my cousins geneen, stefanie, adriana and alessandra..we had soo much fun goin to davids bridal and tryin on all the bridesmaid dresses.. me and adriana kept standin on the pedestals and wantin to just wear the dresses out for the rest of the night..then we went shoppin at mandee and then ate at fridays.. it was fun * good bonding time

hmm well i guess thats its.. oo yea and yesterday was april fools day..to bad i didnt get anyone to bad.. except i did make alex belive me and gabbie knocked over a guy in a quiznos sub costume and he started rollin down the street lmao.. oo wow well imoutt.. gotta start gettin ready for this partayyyyyyyyy!

love ya bitchess <3 gabbyyy

vacation...all i ever wantedd

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 20:02:23 GMT

hey everyone.. so l et me just update you on my vacation

* i recently found out that my x bF has a new gF.. thats alwayss great news </3 you kno .. you think your over someone till something hits you out of nowhere and then BAMMM ..it hurtssss but on a brighter side..things between me and the kid that ive been talkin to have been goin really well.. we hung out yesterday and saw a movie..it was nice.. i hope things work out =) i dont kno what to write..i guess thats all.. keep smiling <3 gabbi

havent updated in a while

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 04:04:37 GMT

hey everyone..i kno i havent updated in forever..but ive ujust been so busy..and i started myspace...dman that thing is addicting...

i kn0 ..ppl warned me lol * i guess i never listen

anyhooo.. everything has been goin great.. besides for my little knee injury lol.. ive just been hangin out.. havin fun..and i think i might have met someone.. now i kno i told certain frends that if i seemed interested in someone before the summer..to slap me.. but i cant help it.. hes such a sweetheart.. really genuine..

*anywayy.. razzous was alot of fun...well i had fun at least.. left kinda erly..for anonymous reasons

im pretty excited for easter// i love gettin together with the famm..theyre good pplzzz

monday - canal street..soo excitedd =D

wow soo yea thatss pretty much my life right now.. ill keep youz posted tho..

happy spring break !! * have a happy easterr <3

ps.. i was in starbucks with kelli tongith and she told me i was definately goin to be one of those ppl in college who like hang out in coffee shops writing poetry and feeling the music haha.. gotta love herr

ooo crutchhh

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 02:50:45 GMT

wow soo let me tell you about my interesting saturday..

it was my great grandmas 90 th birthday party..and i was just gettin my shoes out of my closet to leave for the party ..when all of a sudden my knees cracked..and wheni went to get back up..my left knee popped out of its socket and i couldnt get up.. it hurt soo bad..soo we had to call an ambulance and i was taken to the hospital.. now i have to wear a brace on my leg and walk around on flippin crutches till i see a doctor on monday.. =(

it really bl0wssss...

soo me and kelli went to cross county the night of my "fun" accident and bough marie her bday present then met the girls at applebees for dinner..the waitress -> total bitch.. i complained to the manager about her..and she got mad at me..soo i flipped out on her.. please dont fu.ck around with me whn im in a bad mood.. im not as nice as you think lol

* but we did have fun celebratin my little stonziesss birthday =) love you babeee

soo we left and keli slept overr..it was funn
im tired tho.. got a big day tomorrow.. =)

shake ya gro0va thang yea yea lol

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 17:39:19 GMT

ok l et me just tell you how much fun gabbie's sweet 16 was...

first of all she looked soo pretty..she had a turquiose and hot pink dress..very sexy..me and kelli told her it was soo barbie.. she didnt kno if we meant it in a good way or not..but when barbie comes out of mine or kellis mouth..take it as a compliment lol

everything was so nice..the food..the dj.. the peoplesss..the waiterss <3

we danced all night and had soo much fun.. me and kelli went in sunglasses and put them on when the techno came on.. we felt very guidoo lol ..gabbie was gettin her groove on you kno how she do lol..

lisa introduced me to her guy frends.. ialso met the infamouse thomas

* i introduced my self to chris and he relplied.. i already kno who you are because im famous lool. hes a fuunny one

gabbies candle ceremony was so cute.. for my candle she sed the sweetest things abot me.. i was so lucky to have her 16th candle.when i went to light it i was so shaky though bc i was about to cry.. " we might share a name but theres also one other thing we have in common..everything" -gabbie

by the way her moms cookies were amazing lol.. i pretty much ate about thw whole plate..

all in all everyone had a good time.. i took lots of pictures so ill post them when i get them developed..as for noww.. i have to go..ive got a big day ahead of me <3

*keep smiling <3

happy st pattys day... =)

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 03:18:19 GMT

wowo.. i dont have alot of time here .. but man have i been busy.. i hardly have any time to write.. =(

*basically my days now consist of
1. waking up at 7 in the morning after having an average of 5 hours of sleep
2. going to school and being annoyed by endless amounts of people..and still puttin on my happy face * for those of you who keep me sane thankss =)
3. softball for about 1 1/2 to 2 hours .. lot of runningg
4. goin home for maybe 20 minutes..then leavin the house at 540... goin to lifegaurding clinic
5. listenin to safety lectures for about 2 hours
6. swimming 500 meters
7. gettin home at 930-945
8. doin my homeworkd
9. talkin to the people i talk to EVERY night b4 i go to bed
10. take a shower
11. repeat

wow just writin that got me tired.. i have to finish my religion homework

*on a lighter note..gabbies sweet 16 is tomorrow =D i cant wait !!!

heck yess i do0

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 02:35:30 GMT

hey today was alot of fun.. even tho i didnt do much.. lol

i went to my nonnas and ate at her house for dinner.. yummy ummy pastaa =)~ then i went to my sisters bassketball game and chilled with danny b cuz his sister is on my sisters team. . it was kinda boringg

< random thought.. the mostr akward feeling in the world is sittin next to someone youve known your ENITIRE life and having nothing to say*>

anyway after that my dad took me to modells to get some softball equipment.. and i got a new bat =D.. sliding shorts.. batting gloves.. and a bunch of new shorts and tee shirts to practice in.. im so excited for the season you have no idea..

then my parents had a tlak with me on if i have to go to summer bc of chem..im

1. not gettin a car till im 20
2. not allowed to lifegaurd this summer and all the money put towards takin my lifegaurdin course will be useless
3. not allowed to hang out all summer
4. never alloewd to have a social life

well maybe the last one wasnt really sed..but if they sed it i wouldnt be suprised.. i mean i am tryin over here ppl.. chemistry blowsssssssssssss

* i need breathing space

ok that comment was for all the people that arent givin me my space.. if you think you know who you are..maybe its time to back away for a few months.. let me do the damn thing..livin it up.. on my own =) kk thanksss

anyhoo.. ive come up with another theory..lets title these deep thoughts .. uhmmm

gab*s deep thoughts? -> maybe some comments will help me name my theories =)

okk soo here goes..
i learned..that every single person we meet in our life leaves an impact on us.. it is inevitable that not everyone we meet and share time with will be in our lives forever..and for those of them that dont wish to be in our life or arent in our life forever.. they give us the chance to learn from them . .whether its a good learning experience or bad.. if it is a g0od learning experience.. we must hold on to the memories , being grateful for what once was.. and understand that it wasnt meant to last forever..and if that experience is a bad one..it is up to us to pick ourselves up from where we have fallen.. brush ourselves off & never make the same mistake TWiCEE
*and through all these hard times.. smile.. dont act bitter..becuase noone should ever get the best of you..show those who think you cant that you CAN =)

thats righhhhttt.. im gunna finish my gay as hell chem homework thoo.. love ya guys who read my journal.. mwahhh *

havnt writtin in a while

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 04:59:39 GMT

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hey srry i havent written in a while.. my weekend was kinda busy

yesterday * cristina capms sweet 16 was soo much fun..soo yea gabbie picks me a kristen up at my house around 650.. thinkin it will only take about 10 mintues the get there..we leave my house.. little did we kno wed be arrivin at the party at 745 lol..we kinda got off at the wrong exit and ended up in south yonkerss.. o0opsss =/ lol..

soo we get there and everything was so nice.. cristina looked so pretty.. me kristen gabbie sabina alexis margaret bella colleen and the rest of the girls had so much fun dancin all night.. the dj was a little creep though.. he was a little too interested in me. .considerin he asked me what sign i was.. umm okkk NOOOO

anyway..

<love at first sight?.. n0 comment ;) lol>

yeaa soo the party was fun to sum it all upp =)

anyhoo today was quite a day..kelli came over at like 1 and we just chilled around my house all day goin crazy and dancin around lol it was fun.. then we made up the guest list for my party..arre you lucky enough to be on it ? hmm we;ll just wait and see.. soo then we chilled some more and amanda came over. .kelli left around 530..me and amanda chilled till about 830 ..then mike came over..then kelli..we all just chilled in my basement..it was really fun though..we had alot of good laughs..we watched cinderella.. and napolean dynamtime.. woo was that a funny one..even tho ive seen it like 50 times.. still gets me i tell ya < heck yes it does >.. and took some sexyy pictures..amanda and mike found the pic of me gabbie and sabina and the edible underwear picture lol.. it was funnyy =D

wow im really tired.. i gues thats about it.. cant remember everything.. but it was a pretty damn g0od weekend if i might say so myself lol..

s0ftball . .

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 02:24:16 GMT

omg i made the jv softball team ! im so proud of myself..that was the ONE goal i sset for myself for the rest of the school year and i did it.. and its my first year trying out in my life.. so i was really hyped ..but i was so nervous during tryouts.. o mann.. well im excited for a fun season..

anyway.. today was such a waste of a school day.. we had a two hour delay and on top of that we had a half day..so classes were only about 10 minutes each today.. so we basically did nothin at all today.. but do we do otherwise ever?

then after school there was freshman registration and stuff.. and me and amanda worked the front desk kinda and greeted people as they walked in ..it was kinda fun.. but after about 5 people i got kinda bored >=/

me and amanda we british for the day
1. rhode island is neither a road nor and island -> discuss
2. a warehoouse -> you neither wear it nor is it a house lol * dicuss
3. shoe.. its neither a SH nor an OE - define OE
4. garbage pail.. umm shutup

lol wow we are weird ..and amanda tried to kill me with her kisses..but all i could do was scream and falldown hysterically laffin..sayin ..if her kisses killed..id be dead a long time ago..she didnt get it.. i was too tired to explain lol

o yea before that..me sabina, amanda, rosie, sabrina and betsy walked to get pizza.. and me and sabina had a fry eating contest omg.. i cant even remeber how many fries we fit into our mouth at once.. but let me just tell you.. we finished a HUGE plate of fries on our own lol .. got kinda sick after.. but it was still funny

then sabrina thought she could play a little trick on us and call us from the woods and say she fell and hurt herself..so me and sabina go runnin to the rescue with fuckin horrible cramps bc of all the fries we ate..and half way there they calld to tell us it was all a joke.. omg lol

anyway im really excited about the next coupleof months..bc theyre loaded with a bunch of fun sweet 16s

1. cristina campana
2. gabriella devivo !!!!
3. christina serrao
4. catie kolman mandle

mann am i exicted.. arite well im tired so this is about it.. no poem today

someone told me yesterday that i shouldnt let others peoples problems hold me back from living life.. i was pretty inspired.. but i told him i already learned that.. the hard way <\3

oo man .. just keep that in mind.. its pretty deep.. and always remember dont let other peoples mistakes get the best of you

my dayy

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 00:33:33 GMT

arite soo today was kidna slow.. we did really do anything in global.. except mr byrne did sign me up for AP american history.. i was pretty proud of myself =)

english * as always is the highlight of my day.. in our journal we had to write which famous person we would like to eat lunch with..i of course chose hilary duff <3 then a group of girls did a levitation trick on me and lifted me about 4 feet off the ground.. it was nutzz

kelly was in kinda of a daze today..she stared at me for like a straight minute then decided to tell me that she was gunna go eat cookies upstairs... umm ok kell lol

lisa tells me she knows im depressed when i dont wear makeup lol.. and the more mascara i wear the happier i am lol.. funny -> but true

lunch today me and alex had a deep conversation about how annoying "tommy and danielle" are..

geometry was just a barrel of fun < im kidding >

then after school me and sabinaa did our homework like the little angels that we are.. lol it was fun tho chyllen with rosanna and sabrina.. theyre little cutiess

tryouts -> soo much fun * we did hitting today..i think i did pretty good.. <3 keeping them fingers crossed

wow so now that i just realized my day was flippin boringg .. ill just stop here*

newest poem

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 22:25:08 GMT

when you read this poem.. youll probably notice it doesnt rhyme..it more of a symphonic narrative and a very big metaphor

The empty room :: By gabriella jones

she watches the empty room,
reminiscing on what was once full,
endless laughter and joyous time
have taken its place in the room

the room was once a place to feel safe,
now it brings chills to her spine,
for she can never get back,
what was once existant in the room

she tries desperately for a way back,
the nostalgia is more than one can endure
how can something that caused to much happiness,
bring so much pain?

because even though the room is still there,
it is not the same, and never will be
theres a difference about it
a difference that only those that were intrigued by the room
can truly feel

although the room still has all the was left inside of it
the intensity of the emptiness is inevitable,
it could undoubtedly make her go insane

she wished she could bring back the way the room used to be,
and how it once made her feel,
she's walk into it and feel the sun`s warmth gently touch her face,
she remembers how the room smelt of freshly picked roses and a sweet cologne,
the calming silence of the room brought peace to her mind.

now the room is cold, almost neglectful in a sense,
it smells of old musk and wilted flowers,
she wishes it could bring peace to her mind for one last time,
but it can't
it can only and will only bring worry, doubt and sadness

endless attempts to gain back what once was,
and should't be anymore
only makes her suffer

so she has no choice but to walk away,
keeping the bittersweet memories in her heart forever,
never forgetting all the good times,
and accepting the fact that nothing good can last forever

x0x_________

my sunday..soo far

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 22:13:37 GMT

ok so my dad took me to the battin cages at 1 in the afternoon the day after baseball/softball tryout season officially kicks off.. hmm not the best idea.. there must have been a 15 minute wait for each cage..so we went for about an hour then my dad drove me to vickis house..

* we watched her sweet 16 video..it came out soo nice.. there was soo many funny things on the video like lucas doin his interview and me tellin the camera my name like vicki wouldnt of known it anyway..then of course there was mike b dancin all over the damn place..and me tryin to teach matt to dannce the electric slide lol aww ..

im suprised by how much has changed since her party.. but im glad i enjoyed every moment of it<3

so then we went to bennigans and got some yummy food..and there was a stupid clown there.. i think she knew i wudd of taken the butter knife out on her if she came any closer to me..she could probably smell the fear on me

toodles <3 gabbi

family partayyyy. .

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 03:53:00 GMT

wow ok..soo tonite was my uncles 60th birthday party..

* food = delicious

< me and adriana had some totz >

so yea me and adriana talked for about 2 hours about the whole relationship thing..i feel kinda bad bc shes gettin a little nervous on the whole dating concept..considerin the luck i have =/ .. oo well we came up with alot of theories and touchin discoveries..lol

oo yea and we watched "goldfinger" - classic movieee

highlight of my night -> my uncle tony doin his card trick..that was so confusing i think i caught a couple of people falling asleep .. lol after the card trick was done..my dad proclaimed that was "the worst card trick he had ever seen" lol oooo mann

then my grandpa is telling dirty jokes in italian.. little does he know all of the grandchildren take italian and pretty much understood what he was sayin.. not cool =/~ lol

yea so me and adriana had fun tonite..we had endless hours of girl talk like usual.. what else ? lol.. and im so excited because my little calzone is comin to victory next year.. man o man are we gunna have fun..well thats about my whole night

im tired.. g*nite <3

sAd s0ngg <\3

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 20:36:31 GMT

recently..kelli burnt me a Cd..titled "Cry, Cry forever"..on it there are hopeless, depressing songs about love and losin someone you love..i wanted to post these lyrics to basically sum up how i feel..

it only hurts - shania twain

Hope life's been good to you
Since you've been gone
I'm doin' fine now--I've finally moved on
It's not so bad--I'm not that sad

I'm not surprised just how well I survived
I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive
I can't complain--I'm free again

And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So, I hold my breath--to forget

Don't think I'm lyin' 'round cryin' at night
There's no need to worry, I'm really all right
I've never looked back--as a matter of fact

And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So, I hold my breath--to forget

It only hurts when I breathe

Mmm, no, I've never looked back--as a matter fact

And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So, I hold my breath--to forget

Hurts when I'm breathing
Breaks when it's beating
Die when I'm dreaming
It only hurts when I breathe

x0x____ sad isnt it?

. . last night

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 19:57:29 GMT

ok so let me just tell you that one of the few things that actually piss me off.. is when plans fall thru..and let me just tell you.. last's nights plans - fell pretty fuckin hard

arite so me and kelli are late on gettin to amandas house because i had to help her starigten her hair and then we got caught up on listenin to the cd kelli made for me ... its titles " Cry, Cry forever " she made it for me because of me and matts breakup and theres 20 depressing break up songs and sad lve songs on it < what a great friend> lol..andway bc we were late we couldnt even have our tea party =(..and to top it off i baked the brownies with OLIVE OIL instead of vegetable oil..and they smelled like shyt and im almost 98 percent sure they werent even edible =/

soo yea we get to the movies at like 7:10.. and me , kelli , amanda & ryann are waiting for the ppls to get to the place and then joanna showed up, then colie and silviana..then we waited " 3 and a half" minutes for kristen to come lol.. which in reality was about 20-25 minutes..

ant and his friend gil came.. i think they felt a little left out.. oo well what do you expect when your with like a bajillion girls

< kelli threw a tampon at me - random - I KNO >

and by the way I FORGOT TO BUY A FUCKIN CAMERA.. omg the one thing i wanted most..

soo yea were sittin in the movies for half hour..being completely bored off our asses..so a few of the girls decided we should just walk to mammas to do the damn thing.. but the second they went outside..they came right back in < it must have been 20 degrees outside > soo we trooped on over to applebees ( 45 minute wait might i add ).

soo amanda, ryann, joanna, and kristen went over to claires to ummm..buy some stuff..and me , nicole, kelli , sill, ant and gil were waiting in burker king wen out of nowhere these two piss ass drunk kids sat right next to our table.. they were so fuckin funny omgg.. one kid was like "your one of the bitches who bought the last smirnoff last week" lol soo we basically made frends with these kids for the time being

amanda came back from claires with the girls and sed she bought a ring - kelli replies -congratulations - not a pretty scene right thurrr =/

applebees - Ace.. not a very nice waiter.. but he almost made us belive hed serve beer to us..anyway.. silviana - the little beast that she is..orders two desserts..and then forgets when they come that theyre both for her lol .. o mann yea so we eat and leave.. we tried askin tim for a ride to mammas but he wasnt even in yonkers so once again another plan backfired

so then after that we went to burker king cuz nothin else was open and it was so cold you couldnt even breathe.. soo yea basically our ffriday night consisted of goin into stores and food joints just to stay warm..it doesnt get any better than that < oops i just lied>

we then walked back to the movies and sat in there with our thumbs up our asses prank callin ppl and takin pictures in that picture takin thingy they have in movies and stuff.. soo kelli decided to save the night and call her mom for an early ride home..its funny.. the later my curfiew gets..the erlier i keep comin home..

*but to say the least we had alot of good laughs and i guess just hangin out doin nothin with your best friends aint so bad lol

x0x______________

on a lighter note ..softball tryouts were today. .i think i did pretty good..considering ive NEVER PLAY ED IN MY LIFE..someone even told me im a natural.. oo well ill just keep my fingers crossed and keep tryin my hardest..then we'll see from there

arite well i have a family party to get ready to go to.. im kinda excited my cousin ajayy ( watup calzone lol) will be there so it wont be so bad..as for now

this is gabbjones * signing off

thanks g0d its fridayyy *

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 21:17:57 GMT

hey did you know today is the only day of the year that is an actualy sentence ? *MARCH f0rTH .. how cool.. anyway..

i started my lifegaruding course yesterday..and i passed the admissions test =D..soo excited..soo today i was kinda tired from all the swimming i did from yesterday.. o well

in italian today we had to have partners and work on some excersizes in our workbook.. and my partner..nikki wills decided to write in my book.. gabriella suona il grande clarinetto fa male.. haha hhmmmm i play the big clarinet bad ? ; )

then in gym we did absolutely nothin.. like usual

ms tracey had "the talk" with us on how all of us arent as serious as we should be.. well it would be alot easier if some of us understood half of what we were learning

anyway - tonite ** gunna be awesome

1. 6;00 pm - go to amanda ferns house.. have a tea party ( yea u heard me ) TEA party . . with her, ryann, kristen, nicole and kelli.. i made some delicious brownies for the occasion

2. go to cross county..BUY CAMERA* take nice pics tonite.. its about time for an update...

3. meet up with anthony and some of his friends

4. see a movie..most like the passifier with vin deisal.. ehh i havent seen a movie in a while.. its about timeee i go to see one

5. finish the night off with applebee;s as alwayss...

wow.. so anyway i have to go..the br0wnies are bout ready and i have to straighten my hair

quote of the day :: if we spend our lives wanting what isnt there..and not appreciating whats right in front of us..time will go by too quickly and one day when you wish it all back.. it will be too late.. soooo -> take pictures.. be random.. kiss slowly.. love like youve NEVER been hurt.. keep promises.. be a bestt friend.. and never forget to smile through all the hard times.. because they wont last forever <3

a p0eMm<3

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 22:09:43 GMT

as most of you kno.. the way i relieve stress is through my writing.. theres something about poetry that lets me kno i can put all my feelings and emotions into a peice of work and let it touch myself and others in so many ways..

Falling :: BY gabriella jones

close your eyes beautiful,
ill teach you how to fly
all you need to do is trust me
and you`ll be soaring through the sky
i know you've flown before
and in the end youve always gotten hurt
but you wont cry with me anymore
for i know how much your love is worth

Look at you, you're flying
i've sent you in the air
Oh my dear, you're falling
for ive forgotten how to care
i know i said to trust me and to never have a doubt
but with all the troubles in my life its hard to figure out
..if i truly love you
and if i truly care
but i promise i'll be back one day to hoist you in the air
and if your love has changed
and someone else has given you wings
promise me you wont forget, and move onto better things
and if you find that person who keeps you steady in the sky,
ill be watching you, missing you
and then i'll start to cry

For when i was hurting, i made you hurt too
and i didnt really understand all the pain i put you through
i should have kept you from falling,
because i knew you were afraid
that i was just another boy
that was aware of how much you gave
i know you gave your heart to me
despite all the pain you went through
and i never realized how much i needed someone like you
you gave me your trust as hard as it was to try
and when i looked at you i could see into your eyes

that i was the reason that you were able to soar. .
but im sorry my angel,
i just cant be the one to let you fly anymore </3 _____________ xOx___________________________________________________________ this poem is dedicated to the person who let me fall..

what a day

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 21:10:04 GMT

hey everybody.. it looks like im startin my live journal over..and this time.. dont expect so much gruesome details lol..sorry about that one..anyway.. this past month has been so hectic and stressful so i thought id get everything off my chest thru writing.. ill probably post random things about my day..and im into writing poems..soo youll see some of those too..

soo today wass a lot of fun.. i think i inhaled some laffin gas bc to me everything that what sed made me crack up today.. in english we did journals and got to read them out loud and i was writing my stream of conseiousness and it was funny because i was tellin the class how lisa d sounded like a goat when she told me she was "sooooo not in the mood today" ( goat voice) and gabbie screamed I LOVE GOATS..which was suprisingly the next thing i wrote down on the paper and had not yet read outloud haha.. then i continued to say how random kelly is and how i abSOOOlutely loveeeeeeeee her "deer day" idea.. yes you heard it.. its her idea that one day we all dress up as deer and people who arent dressed up like deer have to walk into a room with a giant flashlight*kinda like the headlight of a car* and when the door opens we all have to act startled.. lol well its kinda one of those -> guess you shudda been there moments.. wooo..

My theory :: life is full of suprises.. and since im a firm beliver in the phrase * everything happens for a reason.. i believe if something you once held close starts to change.. and you have no control over the change.. it was only meant to be for a short while and your probably better off with out it.. but you should never forget the memories - but always look forward to whats goin to happen next.. because life is too short to let someone elses mistake keep you from smiling and living you life to the fullest </3 yeaaa.. oo yea and today im startin my lifegaurding course.. wish me luck =) as for now thats about it.. just remember even if you think things couldnt get any worse.. theres always gunna be someone there for you ..to listen and care .. soo all hope is never lost.. it sumtimes might go missing.. but it cant ever be completely lost keep smiling =) loveeee gabbi*